Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Summer and New Ambitions

Hallelieuja, summer has arrived! Con and I spent yesterday at the pool soaking up the sun to round off our great holiday wknd. I'm proud to report that I made it through all parties and cookouts without cheating! I knew I was up against formidable odds bc I do love my booze lol, but since I'm having Ash do my body fat and measurements Friday I felt like I had more important things at stake and found a way to tough it out.. honestly, I'm surprised at how little effort it took for me to stick to the plan. I'm starting to realize how much it has to do with just making a conscious decision to do what's best for me.

While summer isn't exactly upon me yet (still have to BS my way through one more project Thursday), it definitely feels like it outside since it's about 9000 degrees and I'm sweating just sitting here. I've been thinking about what kind of changes or different goals I want to look toward for the next few months. Of course I want to finish up my weight loss goals, gain more strength and toning (although with cf that kinda takes care of itself); maintain my paleo eating style. But something new I've been considering is to cancel the cable. Not gonna lie, I feel like we're a little addicted in my house. There are so many things I need to do this summer--not limited to health goals: renovating the new house, doing lots of reading to prep for law school next year, and just generally enjoying my first (and last) summer of complete freedom for awhile. In the long run we'll save like 70 bucks a month--that's a day trip to the zoo with Connor, or tickets to Kings Island! Painful as it is, I see that it must be done.. but I'll have to cut it off soon before I change my mind, lol..

Friday, May 27, 2011


Today I did my first completely unmodified workout--no bands, lower reps, or scaled down weights. Of course I'm really proud of myself (despite the fact that everyone did the WOD unmodified), it gives me a real sense of accomplishment nonetheless. We're coming into the final days of our 30 day challenge, and I'm kind of pissed at myself because I had a couple of slip-up days when what I really wanted was to go the full distance with zero cheats. It always seems to happen once on the weekends though, so my mini personal goal is to get through this Memorial Day weekend 100% paleo.. we'll see how that goes!!

Now that Connor is out of school for the summer and I'm rapidly approaching graduation (yay!!), I'm having a hard time finding a balance. Granted the busy-ness of finishing up at Wright State is probably the biggest barrier, but it's tough to peel myself out of bed for CF at 5:30 am every day when it would be sooooo easy to sleep in :) Then again, I know myself well enough to realize that waiting till afternoon class gives me too many opportunities to come up with an excuse to be lazy so I'm thinking 5:30 am and I might have to learn to be friends... hmmm...

I'm also really excited to report that my little sister will be joining my CF family soon, which is awesome! I'm really looking forward to having her come with me, we've become a lot closer in the past couple years so I think it will be really fun for us to do this together! And for those who don't already know, it appears that I have a busy month ahead of me in June since Connor and I now have a new house! Yay for not living in the ghetto anymore, although I was really looking forward to teaching Con how to use a shank.. hahaha j/k

Sunday, May 15, 2011

It's a love/hate relationship..

Since I started getting serious about paleo eating, I've realized there are certain foods that I just can't keep in the house. They're just too damn tasty and I'll overdo it before I have a chance to red flag it, lol.. so here's the short list of incredibly yummy paleo indulgences--

Two words: ALMOND BUTTER. Especially the crunchy kind by Maranatha.. mmmmmmm...... they also sell a creamy chocolate spread, all of which are great for paleo baking recipes. But when you're trying to stay away from the sweet addictions you just gotta say no to the nutty goodness lol..

Almonds that aren't pre-packaged. It's easy for me to grab the snack packs and just have one, but if I get a bag/canister look the hell out bc there's a good chance I'll find myself zoned out, bored and hungry just noshing away on wayyyy too many almonds. I just need that portion control, it is what it is!

Dark chocolate--questionable in the paleo/primal eating world but I bought an 80% dark Belgian chocolate almond bar on excellent discount a few wks ago thinking I could eat a few squares here and there, which was an epic fail. Once I get started on the sweets it's all over but the cryin lol. One of the many reasons why I figured a 30 day strict challenge would be good for me because as with any addiction you have to learn to 'just say no' if you don't have self control!

Friday, May 13, 2011

I think I'm gonna puke...

I was a little on edge about the fact that today is Friday the 13th; call me crazy but I guess I'm a little on the superstitious side and I err on the side of 'what can go wrong will go wrong.' It actually ended up being a really lucky day for me! I got to sleep in til 7, my all day class only lasted until noon, getting to enjoy a round of golf with some fun people, and rounding it off with a call from work saying they didn't need me to come in tonight-- hot dog!

I missed morning Crossfit bc of my class, which sounded lucky since I got a 7 am text from Josie berating me for being lucky enough to somehow always miss the HARDEST workout days. Being the completely insane jackass that I am, I decided that since I didn't have to work I should try and hit the afternoon class (on a full stomach mind you) knowing FULL WELL what was in store. I shot Ash a courtesy text telling her she would be well advised to get a puke bucket ready due to the combination of heat, a full belly, and an ass kicking workout, which she most definitely delivered! I layed on the ground for a few minutes at the end of our WOD having on of those few 'come to Jesus' moments, all the while trying to catch my breath and choke back the puke. Rough....

There's one thing that's been bugging me about all this.. why the hell did I do it? I had fair warning that it would be torture, and I showed up anyway. Even after I had just eaten lunch (chili) and it was hot as balls out. Still showed up. I guess I'm surprised and maybe even a little proud of myself; I realized today how much more seriously I take my commitment to myself, my health, and to other people who expect great things from me. I walked a little taller on my way out of class today, albeit almost doubled over, limping, and dripping sweat...

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Time and Money are two Terrible things to Waste..

In my quest to adapt a more paleo lifestyle, I've noticed a few things.. for one, I'm oddly obsessed with my bruises. Constantly showing them off like 'yep, see those baseball-sized beasts on my shoulders? NBD, just did a shitload of front squads yesterday at 85#'. Other people probably think I'm a weirdo but it's fine bc I wear them like medals of honor. Well, except the ones I get on my collar bone since I'm sure everyone is judging me for those.. they look like effin hickeys I swear! Another thing I've noticed is my addiction to reading blogs about nutrition and other people's journey; I bookmark a new meal almost every day, and I've ordered several really interesting books that I see other people referencing. It floors me how little we all truly know about our own body chemistry--it's a little unsettling.
I've also noticed that throughout the past several months my budget consciousness at the grocery store has gone completely out the window. I'm not sure when this happened, but I just started noticing it the past couple of weeks and it needs immediate attention. Anyone who has followed this WOE can tell you it isn't nearly as cheap to live on a relatively high protein/veggie/fruit/nut diet as it is buying a ton of low quality, highly processed garbage. But there are ways to make it manageable, and I'm starting to find great ways to save..
- Shop the ad at whatever stores you like--mind you I don't have time to mess around with going to several groceries, so I go wherever the best deals are on the meat and produce I want. Chiefs a great deal on their pick 5 for 19.99 meats, and Walmart always has huge packs of chicken breast for 1.99/#. They might not be trimmed down and ready to cook, but I do them all at once and grill a shitload of it for the week, which also saves time!
- Clip a few coupons--this doesn't mean you have to become one of those insane extreme coupon ppl.. NOBODY NEEDS 93 BAGS OF CROUTONS, EVEN IF THEY ARE ON SALE. But if you find a good coupon for frozen veggies, save it til you see them on sale in the weekly ad then stock up! You'll save a lot more that way, and it usually tides me over til the next time they go markdown.
- Start a small garden--this is a new endeavor for me this year, so we'll see how it goes. But I figure if I can grow a little fresh produce right in my backyard, it'll be fresh and free so I win double!
- Eggs!!--they're cheap, easy, can me made a million different ways, and great for protein. Nobody said you had to eat a big fat steak or chicken breast at every meal. I love eggs in all form, which is strange bc I always hated them before! Ever since I cut out processed shit my palate has changed immensely, just another benefit I'm reaping from this WOE!!

So there you have it, a few of the ways you can stock and save. And just one more thing I've noticed if you're not sold yet--my food is 10000000x better tasting than anything I can order in a restaurant. Which makes me sad bc I love eating out... but I must admit, I find it mostly sub-par in comparison these days. Oh well, just one more way I'm saving mulah!!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Fave Fives

So it was shock and awe for me to walk out of class this morning and see the sun. I'm in a goof mood even though I busted myself in the chin twice doing my cleans, and decided to do a list of the top 5 things I love about CF class:
1. Lifting heavy shit-- it just makes me feel like a badass, and knowing you can step it up and get stronger the next time is the greatest feeling

2. Pullups-- don't get me wrong, they're hard as hell and I still use a band lol. But the first class, I used THREE bands. And now that I have my kipping down it's only a matter of time till I'm on a weaker band, maybe one day none at all. High hopes! Lol

3. The People-- yeah, this should probably be number 1 but I'm not switching things around now haha. But in all seriousness, these are some of the coolest, most badass people I've ever met. Everyone has been nice and welcomed me since day 1, and there is always a feeling of camaraderie when you walk into that place.

4. Ashley-- she's pregnant and can still do every WOD better than the boys. She kicks my ass daily, doesn't let me bullshit around even when I'm tired and I start arching my back, and she always texts me to check in if I miss class. Do the lovely people at snap do that? I think not!

5. Paleo-- eating real food all the time just makes sense. If you want me to go in depth sometime I will, but the bottom line is you are what you eat. I wish I had known this several months ago when I was justifying eating weight watchers cake bc it fit into the points system, lol. The bottom line is, health really is 80% nutrition and only 20% what you're doing with your body. Doesn't mean you can't indulge once in awhile, but for God sakes put down the stack of oreos! Lol

Maybe it's the residual endorphins from this mornings epic WOD, or possibly the fact that the sun is out for the first time in like 3 months.. either way, I'm feeling relatively optimistic about this day despite the fact that I have to work and then go straight to a 5 hour class. I've been thinking a lot about what makes me happy and how that list has evolved over the past several months. Aside from my family and friends, the basis would have been an all-inclusive list of vices, foods, and other incredibly self destructive hobbies. Being that I'm only 5 wks from finishing my Bachelors (hallelieuja!!), I feel myself starting to slack a lot--I'm getting that old itch of senioritis that starts to spread from classwork and papers into the rest of my life pretty quickly. I felt lazy, and with the holiday parties I noticed my 90% paleo eating habits slipping to 85..80.. you can see where that leads.

Which is why I am so grateful for the May Paleo Challenge that most of us are participating in. It's 30 days, no cheats. Zero. No BLT's (Bites, Licks, Tastes).. no alcohol.. and for myself it also entails no paleo baking, gum chewing, or diet pop, because these are two of my crutches that I know keep me from doing the very best I can. I'm really hoping that I can stick it out because the physical and mental rewards are through the roof for a former food a holic like myself. I grew up living to eat instead of eating to live, and that's a really hard habit to break. So I'm ditching the paleo cookies and dark chocolate chips this month, I won't even snag a tootsie roll or Swedish fish from Connor's leftover Easter candy. We'll see where the next 25 days takes me!

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

In the Beginning...

Since I delved into the world of Crossfit and subsequently Paleo living, I've become a little obsessive about reading the blogs of others following the paleo lifestyle. I guess by nature I'm the type of person who will take an idea and run with it, so I've been trying to learn as much as possible about primal practices if you will through the wealth of info and experiences that others have put out there. As for this, well, my cousin encouraged me to start a blog to chronicle my progress in this new undertaking. Looking back I wish I had started back in August when my weight loss journey really began, but I guess it's recent enough to still have a fair amount of fresh perspective.

At any rate, here I am about 6 wks into starting crossfit. For those who have never had the pleasure of a CF class let me assure you that it is unlike anything you have probably ever experienced in the way of a fitness class. I'll never forget the first two weeks, I was so unbelievably sore--there were days I could barely lift myself out of bed! But it was a good pain, amd I knew that I could power through it and eventually not feel like I was dying (enter week 3, lol).

Don't get me wrong, there are still classes that cause me to have one of those 'come to Jesus' moments, and truth be told I will probably ALWAYS get nervous before every WOD, but the beauty is being able to push past that fear/nervousness and prove to yourself that you can do more than you thought. It is perhaps the biggest benefit for me; while my body has changed so much the past 9 months or so, I still struggle with the fat-girl mindset that I lived with for so many years prior. Being able to now succeed at something so hardcore that I love SO much is an unbelievable feeling.