Thursday, September 22, 2011

On getting called out (by yourself)

Guess what? Life is kind of a bitch. You either have to learn to roll with the punches or get rolled the fuck over. This week, I officially got Rolled. The. Fuck. Over.

I have a tendency to let my vices get the best of me, especially when I'm really stressed out (Legal Research and Writing class makes me want to lay open a vein...), so I've been a slacker in every way possible except for school the past few days. The problem for me lies with the fact that when I let one area get out of control, say I don't go to CF for a day or two, then it starts this domino effect where everything else just goes to hell in a handbasket. The next thing you know I'm eating like an asshole, drinking diet pop like it's my job, and I've got a massive stomach ache. Which leads to "I can't get shit done because I feel like hell and there's a carb driven mental fog that cannot be shaken" and finally I just give up altogether. Much as I hate to admit it, I thrive on discipline, routine, and schedules. Once the balance is disturbed the whole damn thing goes out the window, that's just the way it is. But there may be a remedy in sight! Rather than wallowing in it for a change, I'm going to get my shit together, go to bed early(ish), make it to CF in the morning, and hit the reset button on this week. Okay yeah, maybe it's Friday, better late than never though eh?

I guess sometimes I just have to mentally call myself out when I know I'm not keeping my life in line... in case you hadn't noticed, today is one of those days. I decided to do it publicly because I don't like being a hypocrite, and I'm hoping that this will serve as a reminder to keep myself in check. And if it doesn't I'm hoping someone else will take the liberty to call my ass out, because let's be honest--I need all the help I can get at this point! Haha

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